Easter Meditation

Joy.  
We can accept the world for the way it is and live our lives for the love that is in it.  We can choose whoever we want to be, do whatever is within our capabilities and learn to transcend our own limitations.
You are being asked to find the light in your life and embrace it.  The tools of healing lie within - in the love that transcends everything.  

Hmmmmm....this is not the first time I've drawn this card and it's not the first time I've drawn this card when I've asked for Grace in the same specific area of my life.  As I placed my hand on the deck and closed my eyes, I thought about the enlightening, heart-opening practice that I had with Carmen this morning and asked silently what it is that I need to focus on to move forward in my relationships with my sisters and my mom.  I'm a person who is biased towards action, towards fixing, towards moving forward.  The thing I struggle with is how to be accepting, especially where the same attitudes and behaviors are repeated but different outcomes are expected.   It's not my style to repeat-again.  I'm a tweak-and-try-again kinda girl.  In a family where apologies are rebuffed, sides are picked, and blame is laid, I feel inadequate to try to fix situations or mend relationships.  I think the Universe is being deliberate in re-handing me the lesson that it's not always about tweaking and trying again.  Sometimes it's about focusing on your own joy, your own light, and being who you are.  And leaving other people the space to do the same.

I also have to smile that this beautiful hummingbird representing healing comes on the day that Todd and I rescued a beautiful Red-tailed hawk.  Putting aside our own fears and uncertainty, not ignoring a spirit in need of help, being persistent and not saying "oh well, we tried and it wasn't there when we looked the first time".  Helping is healing to both the helper and the helped.  I also can't overlook the fact that we always talk about my dad's spirit being a Red-tailed hawk, which I think might be why my eye is quick to spot them.  As I struggle with family dynamics, I've been thinking about him a lot lately, especially in the quiet times:  like when I'm driving home at the end of a day and I see a Red-tailed hawk, standing injured, along the road.

Namaste